Penectomy FAQ

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 06:55

What is the reaction of other guys now when they see you have no dick?

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 07:01
When it comes to other men that see me it goes from the very excited top/doms and some bottoms that want to be like me to the guys that are usually bottom that freak out because they love their dicks to much to lose them. but when it comes to sex I am very happy and enjoy sex more than ever and the penectomy hasn't slowed my sex life down to many guys out there that love the look of a masculine dickless guy

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 07:35
How come you didn't think of the relocation of your urethra at the time you had your dick removed?

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 11:51
I did and the cutter even attempted it but if you read my log then you know I went to the emergency room at hospital and that is why the relocation failed the hole closed up and I could not pee

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 07:35
What was it that made you realize you wanted your dick removed (and what influenced you)?

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 11:56
I first looked it castration but after learning more I didn't want to lose my sex drive and I also did not want to take hormones to stay masculine and at the time I was beginning to dislike sex since many of the men I met were bottoms and very aggressive bottoms always wanting me to fuck them or want to suck my dick. to be honest I didn't like guys jerking me off since I would lose my sex drive once I orgasm. the last straw was when one bottom said to me if you have a dick you can fuck so that sealed the deal and the dick had to go

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 07:36
How big was your dick before? [The reason I ask is that mine is smaller than average and I have always been embarrassed by it.]

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 11:57
I was average or a bit more I was 6 possibly 7 inches

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 07:37
Are you an exhibitionist? i.e. do you like to show off your dickless crutch in showers, saunas, on the beach, etc...?

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 11:58
I am and I am also still a bit shy about it since I have a slight fear of how some one will react

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 07:38
What is the most hostile reaction you have had from a guy when he realized (or saw) that you didn't have a dick?

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:00
not very much mostly they try to find my dick with their hands. they can feel my balls but can't locate my dick this is where I start to giggle inside and this usually takes place in a dark room at the baths

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 07:40
With things like underpants and swimwear, which normally have a 'pouch' of some description for male gentiles, does it look 'odd' now that there's not much to put in the pouch? Is the lack of bulge in jeans, etc. noticeable? [I suppose this depends how 'big' you were before.

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:02
so far I haven't had much of a chance to wear tight clothes in public but I like the feel of the smooth crotch under my pants and under wear and always seem to rub the area with my hand

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 07:43
Do you think you will keep your balls or do you foresee a time when you might have those removed as well?

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:05
I am not sure if my balls will stay forever since the need for sex does become addictive and it gets to be like a drug addiction at times all I want and think about is sex and I find simple things are put off and forgotten just so I can have or search for sex if it get to be to much I may just go nullo

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:01
At first when guys started to feel you up in the dark room, was your initial reaction to turn away? Or were you always keen to test reaction as soon as you started going out post-op?

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:16
I liked testing the reaction since after they couldn't find anything they would leave scratching their heads in silence

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:03
Do you think you'll go through with the urethral relocation soon?

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:19
I would like a relocation but so far I have no doctor willing to perform one on me and here in the states we my have some very good medical personnel but our medical insurance system is backwards and their is no govt support if you can pay you can do almost anything

Do you have any up-to-date pix you could send - or does it still look pretty much like the last pix on your log?

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:20
I need someone to hold the camera and take the pictures for me and I need a new digital camera

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:08
Do you think about sex more now than before, because you can't jerk off?

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:22
yes I do sex is always on my mind

Do you, BTW, milk your prostate? Apparently, it is good for the prostate to 'cum'.

I use a enema butt plug shower nozzle to help me milk the prostate and also clean out since I hate dirty holes including my own.. I have so much pre-cum that if I had the relocation my ass hole would be self lubricating as the precum dribbled down over the crack

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:20
Am I right the peeing is quite a messy process for you? Or just awkward?

To: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:24
messy always have to wipe off my balls and use my hand to piss against so the pee goes into the toilet

From: *************** 12/Sep/06 12:21
So, does it look different now to the pix you posted before?

To: ********** 12/Sep/06 16:30
the piss hole isn't that noticeable but over all I think it appears much nicer

From: *********** Friday, September 15, 2006 10:52 PM
Do you ever feel like just simply having a quick wank but get frustrated that its no longer possible? and is this frustration something you knew about and wanted to experience?

To answer your second question first I did know and read about how frustrating it can be or was possible since I wasn't able to jerk off ever again. Many guys suggested that I learn to orgasm by massaging the prostate or using an anal device ANEROS which is basically a male dildo designed to message the prostate and make a guy orgasm without jerking of if used correctly. Now to answer your first question jerking off or wanking as you call isn't really on my mind. I do dream occasionally about fucking a hot studs ass and awaken to find myself humping the mattress but, I haven't orgasmed in this way so far.
 

From: **************
Subject: what's it like?
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2007 02:57:49 -0500
I read your blog, someone posted a link to it on the eunuch.org forum. I've seen nullos and eunuchs before but never someone that's opted to keep their balls (though that seems to be a common fantasy hell after having read it I find a morbid fascination myself).
I'm curious what it's like, in so far as how your sensations have changed. You said you were still able to orgasm, which I suppose isn't that surprising considering that eventually you'd have to, even if only through a wet dream or something. But what sensations do you still have as far as being aroused? Is there just a mental preoccupation with getting off, or is there a physical component as well?
I'd like to know a lot more but I'll keep this one short and if you're comfortable talking more we can go from there. ;)
Peace out.

Hello,
I know what you mean about finding nullos and castrations as being the most common body mods. I may one day go nullo but, I had a desire to try living with my balls still intact. I guess I don't quite understand what sensations your interested in wanting to know about. My balls keep me very horny so, I need to locate a means of sexual relief. Being gay I enjoy and love getting fucked anally, this just so happens to relieve the sexual tension for a little while. When I say getting fucked I mean getting fucked a lot so, I go to a bath house at least 2 weekends a month. Also since my dick wasn't removed completely and a stump below the skin still remains I still feel an erection even though it is not visible. I have a continuous flow of pre-cum and when aroused my precum can and sometimes does coat my ball sac. This is why I would love to have a proper urethral relocation since it would act as a lube while getting fucked.